Pieces of me

A blog for the warriors

We’re ALL a work in progress. That includes all your role models, all the influencers you follow, and everyone you look up to. No one has it all figured out. Take the pressure off yourself and just focus on moving forward. – Mel Robbins

Lately, my mental health has gotten away from me. I’ve written quite a bit about things that I do to keep the wolves of depression and anxiety at bay like planning my weeks, exercise/nutrition, meditation (or naps, sometimes it turns into a nap, and I’m ok with that), etc.

But for the past month or more, I’ve dropped the ball. I gained back a lot of the weight that I dropped in 2017, and while I’ve continued (until this month) my exercise routine, the setback on the scale has deteriorated my mental game.

The chase

I keep trying to get back to the things that work for me, but I feel like I’m chasing a ball downhill. Every time I catch up to it, I stumble on a rock, and once again, it rolls on out of reach. I get tired of the chase and just sit and watch it get further and further out of reach. Having caught my breathe, I now have twice as hard to run to try to grab it, stomp on it with my foot, kick it back in the direction I want to go, anything other than this unproductive, out-of-control decline.

I recently ran across a quote that used the term recalibrate in reference to getting one’s mental focus in alignment with their purpose. Being a writer, words are my medium and I can get caught up on a word. ….or maybe that’s just a weird me thing.

Nonetheless, I started googling different definitions and synonyms for recalibrate to further sink into this idea. Obviously, some of the definitions focused on the term’s mechanical meaning. One such definition that seemed to be what I was searching for was on https://dictionary.cambridge.org, which defines recalibrate, in part, as “to make small changes to an instrument so that it measures accurately.”

Small changes

I needed the “small changes” part of this definition. It was an important reminder that elephants are eaten one small bite at a time.

This week, I decided to just focus on two things. Two manageable things:

  1. Get to bed by 10 p.m. Yup, that’s it. Just turn off wine time early and get to bed. I may not fall asleep, but I’ll not be snacking, and my body will be in a relaxed posture.
  2. Drink my water. Specifically, the goal is half my body weight in oz.

Two, healthy small changes. I didn’t meet the bedtime goal Monday night, but I did last night. I’m choosing to let myself be proud of that small change even if the ball isn’t fully under control yet.

I met a goal, and when the negative talk has come around to sit its fat ass on my mood, today, I’ve brushed it away with that reminder. I did that! I did that for me, and if I can do that, I am making choices to help and not hurt me.

Choices to recalibrate the parts that have gone askew.

I know you’ve been doubting your progress, regretting your choices, putting yourself down. Please remember that you are doing just fine. Remind yourself right now that no matter what it looks like, you are doing the best you can. Always encourage, support and believe in yourself. – @LivPsy

2 thoughts on “Recalibrating two small changes at a time

  1. Cat Tom says:

    I’ve been struggling with these simple tasks. I was so conditioned to busy, busy, busy, I forgot how to slow down. I recently quit two jobs that didn’t sit right with my soul. I have some time before I start training for my new gig, working from home (I hate wearing pants). During this time I came to realize I have been busying myself under the guise of responsibilities, helping others, and providing to avoid taking out my own trash. It sucks having to take out your trash but if you don’t you have to live with the horrid smell of rotting things. Thank you for sharing.

    1. becca says:

      Yes, sometimes less is more. But then somethings get done because they have to get done. 🙂 I’m glad you liked it.

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